New Year, New Start

New Years Eve Look

A new year, a new start.

That's the title I gave this post, because that's the way it feels, It feels as if I had to choose it all over again. Its the first time, that a new year means a new plan. A new beginning, although I don't always feel like this new big change. I believe in change, I believe that everything happens for a reason. All 'causes' occur to make life easier, better, and more worthwhile.
So I must say 'chin chin', let's raise our glasses for a future, a great future, wishing for health, prosperity love and lost of happiness. Tripping is falling, and standing up is learning.

'Day by day, in every way, I am getting better and better, at everything I do.' My mother once wrote this to me on a napkin, and laid it on my pillow, since then, I tell myself this every morning, and  little by little started believing it.

Me, wearing; Calvin Klein Boots, Boutique skirt found in Andorra, Black woolen top, Zara Handbag.

From one day to the other

It is kind of typical that I post something about how life can change in just one day on the 21st of december, the maya's where not right I guess, because my house did not go up in flames. It is kind of funny that the day before 'the end of the world' my life changes radically.

Yesterday I had a plan, yesterday was clear, now it is not, nothing is. I was just starting to get used to the knew environment, the people, the weird vibes. And know all that suffering, for what? Ill have to start all over again, a new place, new people, new energies. Changes can be good, but all I can think right now is; 'I did not succeed'. They told me to leave, bringing me down to the floor, as I was looking down at their feet, 'they', the ones with no human instinct harshly told me I was not worth it, here or anywhere. 

When you don't expect something like this, it is hard to have a clear mind at all, what did I do wrong? I actually did everything correctly, they just didn't like my style, my 'me'. And know I think, anyone who doesn't like my 'me' isn't welcome in my life, in my world, in my blessed and bright globe of laughter and happiness.
But when I leave those thoughts of self-defence a side, I become vulnerable in this gigantic world of big people. My vision becomes blurred and I just can't see what's at the end of that path, I am so desperately wanting to see.
I will eventually get there, I will eventually become someone I am proud of, now I just have to try to push that self-confidence up in the air and although I am scared of waving it up like a flag, I have to toughen up and start believing in my 'me' and not what other people see in my 'me'.



Written by Layla Brizzio Brentar. ºcopyright. Photography by Layla Brizzio Bentar

Kristian Schuller

His photography is just astonishing, he creates the most amazing scenes. Im really, really impressed by this german photographer.

“When we love, we always strive to become better than we are. When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too.”
― Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

Beauty in Darkness

Fear of the unknown.

Getting your self out there, getting your face out there, little by little telling your self to look up, instead of looking at the ground. Looking people in the eyes. Fight that feeling, that barrier that always pushes you back. Speak up! Stop hiding behind your hair, stop thinking that they are more beautiful,  that they are more intelligent,  that they are better. Hey, they are not. Find the strength within you throughout all those perfect things you are made of.

Model; Me (Layla Brizzio Brentar) Photography; Me (Challenging, having to run back to the camera every 5 seconds) I have always wanted to create a portrait where the focus is on the gorgeous plane skin, this 'doll-ish' effect, but always putting that little touch of my personality into the picture, which is not very clear in this session, but it is still something I try to convey through the drastic movements.

The best way of living

Bringing joy to yourself.

I think that living is only worthy if you enjoy it, making the best of every day. Deciding your own path of life, better said, pathss.
No matter what age, how many paths you have followed, or how many phases u have been through, u can still decide life for yourself. Wanna be happy, start with smiling at yourself in the mirror. Worship absolutely everything you see, and try to find something worthwhile in everything you do, may it be a step to the top or a huge mistake.
Let me say it for you; ' You are amazing every single moment of the day.' Hope that made at least a small feeling of laughter in your stomach.
'The stomach' one of the most important parts of the body for me, not only because i am a food lover, but because its the most sensible part of the body, its where we accumulate all those feelings, that may be out of excitement, happiness, laughter, or out of anger, fear or sadness, or it may even me the unknown feeling of not knowing what your feeling. Having no explanation.

Remembering some of those good summer times, some of those good feelings, where I simply enjoyed life. Jumping around my room, thinking about absolutely nothing, no worries no plans, just singing, screaming, dancing, being young, being me.

Indian and australian Vogue

VOGUE INDIA

Deepika Padukone, Vogue India june 2012

VOGUE AUSTRALIA

Katie Forgaty, Vogue Australia December 2011

Fabulous

A varied mix of Textures, patters and colors. A sense of warmth. Wind. Freedom. Culture. Music. Calm. Breath. Living. Life. Me. Myself. I. Energy. Positivity. Prosperity. Trendiness. Vivid but still. Brave. Bright. Charming. Fabulous. Dashing. Confident. Faithful. Gentle. Sincere. Outstanding.This is not the end of my thoughts, I could go on for ever, this gives a brief idea of my enthusiasm  about this photo shoot, by Mariani Vivanco for Vogue Russia.

Alejandra Alonso for Vogue May 2011 Russia by photographer Mariani Vivanco and stylist Katerina Mukhina.